Mexico- Incubus

You could see me reaching,
So why couldn't you have met me halfway
You could see me bleeding
But you could not put pressure on the wound

You only think about yourself
You only think about yourself
You'd better bend before I go
On the first train to Mexico

You could see me breathing
But you still kept your hand over my mouth
You could feel me seething
But you just turned your nose up in the air

You only think about yourself
You only think about yourself
You'd better bend before I go
On the first train to Mexico

You only think about yourself
You only think about yourself
You'd better bend before I go
On the first train to Mexico






Brandon, im asking permission for your video and lyrics. Just wanna share my little brat emotions..PEACE!!!

Tough Loss................insatiable??

Its been a dreaded time for me lately. It almost got affected with my job and made me paranoid. There are still things that can't be explained by just listening but instead, you have to scrutinize the shell of truth but I don't where to start cracking it. It made me lot of doubts even to myself that I can't visualize the exact point to guide me ways. I got all my mistakes I've done and its bolus to count I believe. I'm a guy just like everybody else, still looking for answers and that, I provoke myself to go under and instead, unbind the wind which is blurry to see. I keep on grasping but I was blind and dumb not to see and feel other person close to me. I hate myself so much that I cannot resolve everything. I'm selfish probably and my mind is clouded with negative insights anywhere and I'm trying to hold it down and slow the bleed. I had a feeling that I'm gonna be executed anyway so, I create so much respect for a lady that connects my current life. I'm the person who never hesitates and flaunts to new challenges everyday. But, then, I'm the person who easily frustrated if I cannot accomplish, though, its a hard to maintain but I will keep trying to maintain my composure.

I hurt 3 people on that day. First, my innocent child that was involved of every incident that MUST NOT be but its getting void because she's the neutral person and attached to my heart (of course!! I'm a parent now and I don't want to see my daughter suffering for unnecessary actions). second, my best friend WHO should not carry my legacy of pain because she has nice and jolly life (pretty sure you want to have her as a good friend) and lastly, the mother whom I hurt the most and very hard to get her in track now. I'm guilty of this I admit but there are reasons why it happened and I'm pretty sure GOD planned this too.

Well, I told myself that "Moving Forward" is the best word I can say from now on. I have to let the pain go now so I can I think and renew myself better. Life is a game, you win some, you lose some but its all worthy.

Animal Cruelty

I should write my disclaimer here for sure. I don't want to hit anybody for these scenario. I just want to express what I felt on my travel experience so just be professional reading on it.okay?

It was one scorching heat day in Iligan city when I revisited my important clients. Of course, a bit excited to be there again because I really love the small city even I hate some scenes. It was noon time when I arrived in bus terminal of Tambo. I rode the jeepney after( it was funny coz I still dont know where am I going and being stupid curious of the place.hehehe!!!) So, I didn't mind the time and the luggage that I carry the whole day. Funny coz, I was thinking of myself of being a "balikbayan" in disguise(hahaha joke!!).

Anyway, let's get serious, shall we?..............So, when I decided to ride a cab since I was in a hurry catching up my clients, I passed one road and freaks me out when I saw these "kalesas" (it was pretty historical though) but, that's NOT what I meant. Its the horses who carry bunch of people for transport and felt crushed my heart when I saw them.

Why?

Well, imagine if you're a Egyptian slave during Moses era that you work all day and no water in exchange and you see yourself that severely dehydrated (Shit!! are you kiddin me? Can I kill the driver please!!!). They are ruthless and f*****g idiots just thinking of thier income for the day (pardon of my foul words, I can't help it!!) as in, putang ina!! my hands were shaking as I pass by these horses who are obviously getting weak, very thirsty and drooling of saliva in their mouths in the middle of sunny day (OMG!!). I never knew these drivers that they seem don't care for them at all.I even saw one driver who made a relaxation while his horse is standing still on a hot-cemented road and thirsty. I had a little chat with the cab driver and asked a few questions about them. They were already violated the law before but, they're were rich businessmen behind and morons to keep them on the track. I even pleased the driver "can we pause a bit here, I want to get out of the cab for a moment and make a scene, I want to punch them very hard so they will realize the importance of life" and the driver said "No!! you don't have to! I understand you're feelings but be careful of their organization and I said "that's fine!! i felt bad on them". Now, I just remembered about my little brother who died in vain helplessly and flashed the events that triggered my anger" (whew!! chill!!).

I just said to myself "am i really lucky that I'm human?" Sometimes, humans are meant not to be existed because of Acts of cruelty that we cannot tolerate even in a simple manner. We are fearsome of all organisms in this planet. I hate myself that I cannot save everybody but, I guess, I have to thank myself still that I'm human no matter what it takes.

Time

Is there really time for everything? Why is it so hard to attain things to its perfect level? Of all this time, I'm trying hard to keep up my pace but it just wont let me. Every single day, I can encounter circumstances which not pleasant to everybody. Whenever I travel, I'm thinking of things that is very to hard accomplish. Why? Why?

Am i really selfish for something? or just too naive on adapting situations..Time really tests and play me around. My mind goes to pointblank then suddenly hysterical that wants to get out of the circle. I admit, I'm not satisfied of my life. I still have boatload dreams to reach into. I want to fly as far as my heart goes. But, at the end of the day, I'm only blind to leave someone behind. Its been ups and downs for me every tick of the clock that strikes the number. Numbers don't lie but you can bring somebody down to keep up the pace of life. I guess, God sometimes, wants us to be bitter to learn the unknown and to kill the uncertain. Now, I felt that I'm a jackal in my whole life, keep trying to loose in chains, lost in the wild and in the city as well. Only time can judge my life as my age moves forward. Like they've said "there's no turning back now". Time is still precious but mysterious for my decisions.

Philippine Carabao Center...my new place to visit

I just travel recently in the green lushes of cornfields and majestic mountains of Bukidnon. Well, I can't help to think from that day I passed by the smooth winding roads of Manolo Fortich down to Quezon region. I thought it is just purely rainfall that will sure hit me hard once I get home but time really did define the beauty of true mother nature.....and Bukidnon is one of them. I have one new friend from Davao City and he surely gave me a very accomodating ride. From Cagayan de Oro City, I was really thinking that it will be a misery for me to go for Valencia City and made me undecided but since he has brand new Honda City (whew!! top that!). Well, I say "its a smooth bang!!" So, we started the vigil conversation(dude!! don't be pathetic!!) its an alive reactions and expectations on the road. He's the one who told me about one perfect "MILK farm for rich and wealthy health" and I said " that's unexpected, never thought of that place before". So, when we got to Musuan town, he referred me to the Carabao capital in Mindanao....i guess.hehehe

It was pretty outrageous place that every traveler from different directions either your'e north or from south, definitely!! you'll love to pause your time and have a sweet smile sipping the fresh, mouth-watering, sweet carabao's milk that I admit that I rarely tasted this in my whole life. Well, PCC have various products that you can choose. From fresh milk that comes in different exciting flavors like chocolate, mango and even Ube if you like. I just can't bring it home then because its very far away from my home (whew!!) So, I decided to buy more economical which they the "pastillas" version of thier own.tsk! tsk! Anyway, it was one of a kind experience, Maybe later time, I can do some shooting pictures on my own, I can show it here hopefully.

See you next trip, old friend...................

Hatred.....

My life's thrown into chaos since the day I was born. I've been always dreaming just like everybody, to have merry and almost perfect life (dream house, dream job, dream wife and dream unity etc ). Though, I can't blame everybody, not even my parents who taught me in every little way. It's not easy to feel at ease, no matter what you decide, its just boil down into nothing but regrets. My road doesn't lead me to redemption OR just a confusion that leads me nowhere. Everyday, I'm trying to accomplish things but its just very hard to reach the right goal. Is there anybody listens to me? I guess not!! Hatred really consumes my life. I just wish God can reveal unto me because this is unfair that I don't see any good effect for me..

Please!! somebody correct my life for me?

Mindanao, Philippines..is it really place of paradise OR just another rumor of threat issues

Mindanao, Philippines. It is one of the most intriguing stories that happened on radio, T.V. and internet. Honestly, it sounds amusing but ignorant in a sense of racism between Muslims and Christians. For decades, Mindanao was heard as "fear of culture and government war" and were mislead through several conflicts due to different beliefs and rituals. I understand on every aspect where I met different people in different ways. Recently, I traveled different places here......and that includes, Cotabato Region. At first, I fear of not going home anymore because of wrong information I retrieved. Fortunately, it craves me on my recent job and I have to do it. Well, my hands are shaking and I can't stop thinking cautious looking around, observing unusual stuff and pickpockets if you know what i mean?? Its ironic to see a certain Muslim because I belong here in Mindanao but a lot of people criticize them but if you can only see the true beauty of our culture, you'll definitely love it. Mindanao has several tourist spots to enjoy like the Lake Sebu in South Cotabato, Mt. Apo that covers the North Cotabato and Davao Region; the hot springs in Caraga Region located in Northeast Mindanao; the beautiful rice fields of Bukidnon region; the sparkling waters of Maria Christina falls in Iligan, Lanao del Norte. And, if you're a surfboard enthusiast, try the Sargiao Island which you can truly see the strong waves near the Pacific ocean. But, all of these are surely to discover and will retain its promise if there will be exact unity of one another. See, the major problem here is that the information we retrieved is all mixed up. The people wants to know the real issue. "What's going on the Mindanao today?"

Ever since, the Ampatuans started the "rumored onslaught", everybody wants to think of Mindanao is not friendly at all. I hate hearing those gossips knowing my city is one of the strongholds towards peace.

So, it is YOU who will help me find the answers. Do you know anything about Mindanao?