Animal Cruelty

I should write my disclaimer here for sure. I don't want to hit anybody for these scenario. I just want to express what I felt on my travel experience so just be professional reading on it.okay?

It was one scorching heat day in Iligan city when I revisited my important clients. Of course, a bit excited to be there again because I really love the small city even I hate some scenes. It was noon time when I arrived in bus terminal of Tambo. I rode the jeepney after( it was funny coz I still dont know where am I going and being stupid curious of the place.hehehe!!!) So, I didn't mind the time and the luggage that I carry the whole day. Funny coz, I was thinking of myself of being a "balikbayan" in disguise(hahaha joke!!).

Anyway, let's get serious, shall we?..............So, when I decided to ride a cab since I was in a hurry catching up my clients, I passed one road and freaks me out when I saw these "kalesas" (it was pretty historical though) but, that's NOT what I meant. Its the horses who carry bunch of people for transport and felt crushed my heart when I saw them.

Why?

Well, imagine if you're a Egyptian slave during Moses era that you work all day and no water in exchange and you see yourself that severely dehydrated (Shit!! are you kiddin me? Can I kill the driver please!!!). They are ruthless and f*****g idiots just thinking of thier income for the day (pardon of my foul words, I can't help it!!) as in, putang ina!! my hands were shaking as I pass by these horses who are obviously getting weak, very thirsty and drooling of saliva in their mouths in the middle of sunny day (OMG!!). I never knew these drivers that they seem don't care for them at all.I even saw one driver who made a relaxation while his horse is standing still on a hot-cemented road and thirsty. I had a little chat with the cab driver and asked a few questions about them. They were already violated the law before but, they're were rich businessmen behind and morons to keep them on the track. I even pleased the driver "can we pause a bit here, I want to get out of the cab for a moment and make a scene, I want to punch them very hard so they will realize the importance of life" and the driver said "No!! you don't have to! I understand you're feelings but be careful of their organization and I said "that's fine!! i felt bad on them". Now, I just remembered about my little brother who died in vain helplessly and flashed the events that triggered my anger" (whew!! chill!!).

I just said to myself "am i really lucky that I'm human?" Sometimes, humans are meant not to be existed because of Acts of cruelty that we cannot tolerate even in a simple manner. We are fearsome of all organisms in this planet. I hate myself that I cannot save everybody but, I guess, I have to thank myself still that I'm human no matter what it takes.

Time

Is there really time for everything? Why is it so hard to attain things to its perfect level? Of all this time, I'm trying hard to keep up my pace but it just wont let me. Every single day, I can encounter circumstances which not pleasant to everybody. Whenever I travel, I'm thinking of things that is very to hard accomplish. Why? Why?

Am i really selfish for something? or just too naive on adapting situations..Time really tests and play me around. My mind goes to pointblank then suddenly hysterical that wants to get out of the circle. I admit, I'm not satisfied of my life. I still have boatload dreams to reach into. I want to fly as far as my heart goes. But, at the end of the day, I'm only blind to leave someone behind. Its been ups and downs for me every tick of the clock that strikes the number. Numbers don't lie but you can bring somebody down to keep up the pace of life. I guess, God sometimes, wants us to be bitter to learn the unknown and to kill the uncertain. Now, I felt that I'm a jackal in my whole life, keep trying to loose in chains, lost in the wild and in the city as well. Only time can judge my life as my age moves forward. Like they've said "there's no turning back now". Time is still precious but mysterious for my decisions.